The bathroom is almost complete except for the fawlty shower that needs a part replacing and it looks great. Got to get a blind fitted and all will be perfect. Phot to come.
As for the rest of my life ...well I have an interesting job, some friends, excellent sons and good family, a new car on its way, my health and independence an exciting, gorgeous lover (yes he persuaded me to come back and he was lovely) and yet, and yet I feel fed up, depressed and tired.
Maybe its a mid life crisis or maybe its a reaction to the fact I feel I've lost some good friends and probably through my own behaviour. If only I had not been so dissaproving of Ja and her daugthers she wouldn;t have removed herself, if only I had not been so distracted with work I woulnt have lost so much contact. Either way I feel bereft and lost and abandoned. I feel sad.
Oh I could make new friends and actually I am good at making friends its just keeping them for a few years I find difficult. Jackie I lost contact with after more than thirty years and now J after more than 20 years so its not as if they are short term friendships but these are people I have known for years and then they suddenly fade away. Being reflective I have to look at myself and I guess I conclude I should keep my temper and not get so indignant. I nearly got all stroppy with PH today but reminded myself that it does me no good in the long run.
I am not sure I can do anything to save the two friendships I have mentioned above but will be available for them should they decide to come back and in the meantime I have to look for others to replace those and I will find them. Even tomorrow I am off to Bas to do some silly its a knock out for work with work colleagues, people I didn;t know this time last year and one of them could be a new friend.....you never know. Onward and upward and shake off the blues and think about all I have got,
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